Twilight Zone

Aether: The Writer

Half a fifth into the night – still another half to go, but already getting hazy; drawn further up into the aether where I hope to find my inspiration.  Or at least respite and a good night’s sleep.  Lord knows I need it.

The edges of the blank page begin to fade – bleeding off the screen and cutting through the night like a phantasm, prodding my psyche for the last remnants of creativity.  The haunting image swirls around me with a cold, empty embrace.  I close my eyes, tight, and take a deep breath, regaining my focus.  And there it is again:  a blank page staring back at me.  I don’t even know where to start, but the damned thing’s not going to write itself.  I take another shot.  Still nothing.  One more can’t hurt.

 The soft glow of my monitor falls onto my keyboard in the darkness of my dimly-lit study, beckoning my fingers to type.  Something – anything.  And so, I do.  Vomiting gibberish from my fingers in hopes that something intelligible, or at least salvageable, will show up on the digital paper.  No such luck, but I keep trying; each subsequent sentence a rambling non-sequitur with dwindling potential.  One more drink for inspiration.  One more for good measure.

The words on the page begin to melt together as an unreadable hazy grey; each new word lost in the fog as it spills out of my screen and envelops the world around me until everything goes dark.  Finally.  Finally, I can sleep.  Finally, I can dream, and maybe find my words there.

BAM!

Or not.  I jerk back and sit up straight in my chair – the ramblings of my drunken night of “writing” still in front of me and no less disappointing.  I lock the screen and stand to ready myself for bed, only to be interrupted by another loud crash.  It shakes my whole house, rumbling and vibrating beneath me – it sounds expensive.  And it doesn’t stop.

It sounds like it’s coming from my basement – the muffled sounds of grinding heavy machinery, breaking glass, and heavy winds.  I don’t even know.  I open my basement door – it swings violently, ripping itself from my hands; I’m almost swept off my feet by the force.  I pull my phone from my pocket, readying myself to make an emergency call, as I walk down the stairs.  I freeze when I finally see it – the source of all this noise.

I conclude that my eyes, and all my other senses, must be playing tricks on me as I stand before a violent tear of swirling, red lights and forceful winds ripping through the air of my home.  This isn’t happening, it only thinks it’s happening, I think as I step closer to the strange, unnatural storm that’s tearing apart my basement.  The center of this curiosity obscures the area behind it, but acts as a window into what appears to be a blood red, hellish landscape of pulsing vines and bulbous growths.  My curiosity gets the best of me and I approach the storm, cautious not to get too close – but foolish enough to get too close.

Searching the area around me, I grab the first long-handled object I can find:  a push broom.  I decide, then, that my best course of action is to poke the beast and send the handle of the broom through the opening.  Nothing happens.  Not to me.  Not to the broom.  I pull the broom out and examine it as closely as I can.  There’s no residue, no apparent damage, and it doesn’t give off any heat – or cold – different from that of the air in my basement.

I do another quick scan of my surroundings and grab a hammer – the only loose tool I manage to find that I don’t feel like I’d miss all too much.  I toss it into the opening.  It lands with an uncomfortable squish.  I run around the back of the vortex to find absolutely nothing.  The portal itself appears invisible from the rear, though the power of its wind is readily apparent, and the flashing lights reflect off the surfaces on the other side.  Still holding to the broom, I poke it through where the portal should be and, again, nothing happens.  I let go of it – it falls to the floor and begins sliding across as the winds force it away from me.  I run back to the opening and watch as the broom handle appears, seemingly, out of nowhere.

This can’t be real, I conclude.  I must be still in my study.  Dead asleep and having the wildest liquor-fueled dream my unconscious mind can muster.  Committed to this conclusion, I step forward and reach my hand out toward the portal.  It passes through without issue – there’s no pain, just a brief, light pressure that brushes against my arm at the point of entry.  I pull my arm back – it’s still intact and unharmed.  I step through the portal.

The first step is unsettling as my foot sinks into the soft, moist ground – pulled in down to the shoelaces.  The constant pull of the floor slows my movement as each subsequent step mirrors the first.  Each step leaves a darkened impression in the ground – a depression that slowly rises once the pressure of my body is no longer on it.  The color bleeds back into it as the footprint fades. With each step, the corridor writhes – it breathes with life.  The walls pulse with a hypnotic rhythm beckoning me deeper.  And so, I follow.  I follow until my entry fades from view – until the path ahead to my unknown destination is shorter than the one behind me.  I follow until I stand before another portal opening to a world that’s wildly unfamiliar and immeasurably intriguing.

 The air is heavy and blackened by soot; I pull my shirt up over my nose to serve as a crude filter.  The sky is a gradient of hazy grey and a deep red.  Streaks of bright green lightning cut through the sky and illuminate the landscape, pulsing perpetually.  The luminous branches intersect and grow – blossoming into an electric web of light overhead that never strikes the ground.  There’s no thunder – there’s no noise at all.  It’s a still, dead air that’s haunting yet beautiful.  I snap my fingers and the audio is abruptly terminated – no echo, no resonance.

The landscape before me is equally ominous.  Saplings sprout from rotting remnants of trees, and desolate structures lie in waste of rubble and dirt.  There doesn’t seem to be any life here, but evidence of its past inhabitance decorates the horizon.  The architecture of the ruins is unlike anything I’ve seen before – no corners or creases, no markings.  Every broken structure appears as though it was composed of a single mass.  The surface textures look like a brushed stainless steel with intermittent patches that have a reflective, though translucent, surface that seems to disappear when viewed at an angle.  To the touch, the structures feel more like glass than metal, which seems a fair assessment given the majority of damaged buildings are shattered opposed to bent or warped.  Despite the foreign architecture, the destruction and quiet abandonment is reminiscent of nature’s reclamation of Pripyat.

I have no suppositions that the answers to what happened here could be found here, but that doesn’t hinder my curiosity.  I circle around the building closest to me until I can find a point of entry – a shattered wall with an opening about 10 feet tall and maybe twice as wide.  I step over the metallic shards that pepper the ground and make my way into the building.  As I enter, the walls illuminate with a soft, but bright, blue light that doesn’t strain my eyes despite the contrast of darkness my eyes had acclimated to outdoors.  The light is singular – emanating from everywhere with no apparent single point of origin shining brighter – and follows me from room to room.

As with the exterior, the walls of every room are seamless with no sharp corners.  Most rooms are bare with no furniture or decorations; the exception to this being what I assume to be the kitchen wherein a large island counter sits in the center of the room.  The island houses three deep basins which have no visible source for water or drainage.  I glide my hand around the countertop which seems to summon an interface, the options on which are noted by a series of concentric circles arranged in Venn diagrams.  Out of curiosity, I press one with no certain expectation.

The area to the left of the display illuminates with a bright, rounded rectangle of piercing white light; it should be blinding, but my eyes adjust with no issue or strain.  I stand over the light and reach out to touch it, but stop as soon as I feel the intense heat radiating from it.  I return to the interface and press the button again; the light fades, almost immediately, and the surface is, again, cool to the touch.

Below the button that ignited the range is a series of three identically-marked buttons atop digital sliders – not unlike the ones you’d see on a soundboard.  I press one and the corresponding basin begins to fill – the liquid seems to appear from nowhere or oozes from the walls of the basin.  I press the button again and the flow stops.  It’s scentless and clear, appearing to be water.  I submerge my hand without a thought or hesitation.  It gets wet.  The water is warm and, by my brief assessment, indistinguishable from that at home.  I shake my hand dry, as best I can, and pat the rest of the water off on my pantleg.  I drag the sink button down on the slider and watch the water disappear, still unsure of how; it drains faster the farther down the slider is pulled until the basin is completely empty.  I run my hand around the basin – it’s completely dry, no droplets or residue.

I start dragging my hands across the walls as I walk around the room hoping that something else might pop up.  I hit another trigger point, and a six-foot by three-foot rectangular cutout recedes into the wall – light spilling out around the corners – and slides out of view.  Cold air carrying an overwhelmingly strong scent of spoiled produce and rotten meat spills out of the opening, triggering my gag reflex.  I start desperately smacking at the wall trying to find the trigger that closes the door; it feels like an eternity, but I finally find it.

“That’s enough of the kitchen,” I mumble to myself as I stagger back out into the hallway.  After catching my breath, I venture down to the staircase at the end of the hallway and ascend to the building’s upper level.  The second floor has the same cold aesthetic of the first, and is still a far cry from what I would call homey.  The walls are bare, but there’s a short bench outside the first door at the top of the stairs; across from the bench is a small table with an empty plate, specked with dried food residue and topped with a knife and trident.  Alien as this place is, there’s a familiarity with the lifestyle that keeps it from feeling entirely foreign.

The door beside the bench is closed.  As I step in front of it, it attempts to open – sliding to the left before jamming and becoming immobile.  I reach my hands into the crack and try to pry the door open fully.  It puts up a fight, but after adjusting my grip for better leverage, it eventually gives way and grinds open.  Unlike the other rooms in the house, this one doesn’t illuminate when I step into it.  I pull out my phone and turn on the flashlight for a better look.

The air inside the room is stagnant and rancid, though not nearly as strong or repugnant as that inside the refrigerator.  At the back of the room, there’s a body lying on a bed with its back propped up against the wall.  It’s humanoid, but very clearly not human.  It appears to be dead.  Its elongated face is contorted in a horrified scream.  The eye sockets – dried and empty – stare down at the withered remnants of its left arm; the bone is corroded, and its hand is nearly completely detached – hanging loosely by the wrist with a strain of rotting flesh.  Its right hand is curled into a claw and ripping at its chest; the decaying flesh of its neck and chest torn to the bone and hanging from its fingernails.  The scene is horrifying.  I can’t look away and, quite frankly, I’m impressed by my imagination.

I approach the bed and begin to search the area for clues of what transpired here.  The bed is draped with sheets and blankets, the corners of which are undisturbed.  There’s a thick, dark outline of dried fluids around the body, though beneath the creature’s left arm is a hole through the blankets exposing the mattress beneath.  There’s a similar area of corrosion dripping down the wall behind the body starting at the base of its skull.  Its left hand is locked in a death grip and appears to be holding something.  I work my way around to the other side of the bed for a closer look.  The blankets on the left side of the bed are torn and sliced – a variety of clean, scissor-like cuts with pairings of jagged tears shredding through the cloth.  The floor beneath has eroded splotches similar to the bed and wall.

I reach for the hand and attempt to pry it open; the skin that seemed to be keeping it attached crumbles into a small mound of ash.  I force my thumb under the digits of the dismembered hand and pry them open, breaking a couple off at the joints.  Beneath the grip is a claw – or something vaguely claw-like.  It’s fairly sharp, but not curved, and the texture is similar to a crustaceous exoskeleton – maybe more like a crab’s dactylus than a claw.  I search beneath the bed and around the rest of the room for the source of this appendage, but come up empty.

I return to the hall and check the other 2 rooms upstairs.  The first appears to be the washroom.  There’s a single basin against the wall and a small shelf holding what I assume to be hygiene products.  Touching the wall above the sink pulls up a similar interface to that of the kitchen, with a button and slider to operate the water and drain.  Along with the display appears a digital mirror; none of the information on which is discernable to me, but it’s intriguing nonetheless.

Similar to the first room, the door to the last refuses to open, though not even a crack this time.  I run my hands around the door trying to summon a control panel of some kind with no success.  I do the same with the dismembered hand from the first room with similar results.  I push against the door and try to force it to the side with friction from my palms.  It’s not very effective.  I look back to the table in the hallway and grab the knife, repeating the process of trying to slide the door with one hand while attempting to force the knife through a crack between the door and jamb.  With more than a little effort, I’m able to shove the knife in and begin prying – twisting the blade and pushing the handle until I can force my foot and hands into the opening and pry the door fully open.

It’s another bedroom.  I pull out my phone again and take a look around.  It’s as featureless as every other room, save for the bed pushed up near the back.  I walk up to it and catch a shadow with my flashlight – something on the other side peeking up barely above the edge of the mattress.  I shift my focus and the light falls on another body.  It’s propped up against the wall, knees tucked into its chest and wrapping its arms around its legs.  Its hands are locked onto its opposing wrists and its head is buried in its knees.  It’s a child.

There’s an empty plate, an upturned glass, and some empty wrappers strewn around the floor and under the bed.  Lord knows how long it’s been locked in here, but it seems dehydration or starvation is what did this one in.  Not an enviable way to go, though from the other corpse, does look more peaceful.

I reach for one of the wrappers, but immediately stop when I see the body move.  A shift in position; a deep intake of breath.  It’s still alive.  I remain frozen, unsure of what to do next, as it throws its head back against the wall with a deep thud.  Its eyes open with a start as it just stares at me.  Eyes unmistakably filled with fear.  It lowers its head immediately and weakly raises its hands – holding them both up, fingers outstretched and palms outward, above its bowed head.

Still shaken by this recent development and struggling to process this whole scenario, I snatch the cup and run to the bathroom.  I fill the sink with water, scoop as much as I can with the cup, and run back to the bedroom.  The child’s still sitting there, frozen in place with its hands above its head.

I reach out and touch its shoulder.  It immediately slinks away from my hand and starts shaking its hands, lowering its head further.  I hold the cup up to its hands and try to wrap its fingers around it; this catches its attention and it looks up at me.  It lowers its head again and grabs the cup and begins to slowly drink, staring up at me the entire time – its expression, having shifted from fear to confusion.  As it finishes up the water, I see its eyes dart to the open door, they widen with fear and anxiety before fixing back on me.  I look to the door and back to the child – its posture returned to the fetal position with one arm outstretched holding the cup.  I take it, assuming it’s still thirsty, and head back out to the hallway.

About halfway between the bedroom and bathroom, I hear splashing noise coming from around the corner.  I slow my pace, making each step careful and deliberate, being as quiet as I can.  I reach the bathroom door and peer around the corner.  There it is, bathing in the water, the crustacean missing a leg.  It’s facing away from the door and doesn’t notice me, but I can’t take any chances.  I start walking backwards – keeping my eyes on the bathroom door.  I move as cautiously and quietly as I possibly can, listening carefully to the sounds coming from the bathroom.

I make it to the bedroom, but catch the knife with my foot – the metallic noise of the utensil sliding across the floor causes me to freeze in place.  I shift my left ear toward the bathroom and hold my hand up to it hoping to hear better, but fearing what might be coming next.  The splashing stops.  It heard me.  I turn to the child in the bedroom and try to communicate, gesturing frantically as I whisper, “We have to close the door.  How do I close the door?”

Then, I hear it.  I hear a thud and the ticking of its feet scurrying across the floor.  I reach down and grab the knife while the creature’s head spins around to face me.  It has six pitch black, beady eyes – all fixed on me.  It rears back, revealing a snake-like mouth with two large fangs angled forward and horizontal mandibles that slam together as it makes a ghastly howling hiss.  I frantically start smacking my left hand against the wall beside the door, desperately trying to get the damn thing to close as the creature begins to clumsily charge.  Its pointed legs lack traction and causes it to slip with each hurried step.

Desperately trying to get the door to close, I begin shouting to the child for any kind of assistance – looking back hoping for some kind of gesture that might point me in the right direction.  But I get nothing but a blank stare frozen in fear as the child’s jaw drops and it wails uncontrollably.  The creature rears back again as it approaches – maybe a foot and a half away from the door.  Its fangs sling upward, shooting out a stream of green, viscous liquid as I slash down at it with the knife.  I make contact between its mandibles, driving the knife in as deep as I can, and slash back up carving through two if its eyes.  It howls again and scuttles backwards.  I keep slamming my hand beside the door until, finally, it closes.

I breathe a sigh of relief, but it quickly turns to horror as I look down at my arm.  There’s a splash of that green liquid on my forearm, and the flesh beneath it begins to peel away.  It is the most intense pain I have ever felt.  I turn back to the child in horror as I hear its screams become hollow and garbled.  The entire left side of its body being eroded as it claws desperately at its opened throat – fear and agony filling its eyes in its final moments as its desperate cries become no more than a whispered final breath.  The body of the poor thing crumples over as it continues to dissolve.

I look back to my arm in horror of the fate that awaits me as muscle and bone are exposed and my grasp around the knife is weakened.  It falls to the floor when I can’t hold on any more.  The hole in my arm starts stretching toward my hand and elbow.  The pain is paralyzing, but my survival instincts override it when I notice that the blade of the knife, despite having stabbed the creature, is unharmed by its blood.  I’m certain it’ll leave a nasty infection, but it beats dying like this.  I remove my belt and tie it around my bicep, uncertain if it will help at all, but I’ve seen it in enough movies that it makes sense to me.  I grab the knife with my left hand and press the tip of the blade into the crook of my elbow.  I take a deep breath as I straighten my arm to get a better shot at the joint.  With my left hand on the handle to keep the knife in position, I walk up to the wall and gauge the distance I’ll need to make contact.  I pull my right shoulder back and slam forward as hard as I can – the wall smashes against the knife handle and drives the blade deep into my arm.  I barely feel it as the pain of the acidic venom is far more overwhelming, but the shock of the experience is still surreal.  I don’t have time to think about it, however, and I begin to pry and twist the knife, working it between the bones and joints – feeling every scrape and pop as I wrench apart my arm at the elbow until it’s only attached by flesh.  I cut through the tissue keeping my forearm attached and it falls to the floor.  It continues to twitch uncontrollably as the venom eats through it and beings to corrode the floor beneath.

There’s lot of blood, and I’m far from safe.  While I was sawing through my arm, the creature in the hall was desperately trying to break through the door.  Its venom was doing the job quite nicely, in fact, as light from the hallway began to spill through holes in the door.

I’m dizzy and dying, but desperate to avoid such a dreadful death.  I stumble around the room looking for the window – hoping desperately that there actually is one in this room.  My eyesight’s blurry and everything’s getting darker.  The windows blend in so well they almost seem pointless.  I prop my head against the wall at the rear of the room, using it to keep me on my feet, and slowly shuffle along the wall trying to catch a glimpse of the window.  Found it.

I raise the knife and start slamming it against the window.  I’m weak and it doesn’t seem to do anything.  I look at the decaying carcass of the child hoping that’ll give me the adrenaline boost I need to make it through.  I’m not sure if it helps.  I keep swinging the knife at the window.  It finally cracks.  I keep swinging – it shatters.  I hear the howling hiss of the crustaceous beast behind me.  I don’t look back – I don’t care to know how close or far it is from making it through the door.

I try, as best I can, to clear the broken glass from the base of the window opening; I don’t think my body can really handle much more blood loss.  I look through the opening; the ground is maybe 15 feet below me.  There’s nowhere left to go.  I jump.

I feel my right ankle pop as I hit the ground.  I landed poorly.  Thankfully, the pain of my arm and the disorientation from the blood loss dulls the pain of this new injury.  It’s hard to stand.  Harder, even, to walk.  But I do.  I shake my head and try to focus my vision as I shamble toward the portal.  It didn’t feel like I walked this far away from it, but now it seems like an eternity away.  I keep my eyes fixed on the portal and limp along as fast I can, shaking my head every three of four steps trying to jar myself awake.  Can’t sleep.  Can’t stop.  Just a few more feet.

I step inside, forgetting how soft the floor is, and fall flat on my face when I’m caught off guard by my foot sinking into the ground.  I try to catch my fall, forgetting I’m clinging desperately to a knife, and drive it into the soft ground.  I feel the tunnel writhe, and what appears to be blood starts pooling around the knife.  I look back to the opening of the portal; it expands and contracts as I pull the blade out.  I start slashing the walls and floors – watching as the portal’s size fluctuates with every cut.  But it doesn’t close.  The damn thing doesn’t close.  I need it to close.  I need to get home.  I dig the knife into the wall and walk forward, pushing it through and cutting as deep as I can desperately trying to close this hole – hoping that the horrors of this miserable world can’t follow me into my basement.

My arm’s yanked back as the blade in my hand stops cutting.  I nearly fall again, but catch my footing before stumbling to the ground.  I try to pull the knife out, but it seems caught on something.  This would be so much easier with two hands.  I yank back on the knife, successfully freeing it after a couple attempts, and more blood begins to stream out of the wound.  Excessive amounts.  I jam the knife back in and start sawing at whatever it was stuck in; it’s difficult, but the flow of blood increases and starts pooling up around my feet.  I can’t tell if it’s the distance or if the portal is actually shrinking, but it looks notably smaller.  This has to be working.

I check the area around for some kind of indication of where another one of these weak points might be.  There’s a cluster of three bulbous growths on the ceiling above me.  There’s several of these clusters along the entire corridor – some on the walls, some on the floors, most on the ceiling.  I move to the nearest cluster and stab into it; the tunnel writhes and the portal behind me shrinks again.  I saw into the wall and begin cutting through another one of the veins, contracting the portal even further.  It’s nearly closed.  I shuffle to the next one – the growths are above my head, so I skip straight to sawing through the vein.  Please, just one more.

As I cut through the last vein, the portal closes and the tunnel grows dark.  The remaining bulbs explode with bursts of light and blood.  And then, the hallway begins to fracture and collapse, falling apart at the closed portal and crumbling towards me.  A wave of liquid darkness crashes down around me and I find myself drowning. I can’t breathe and feel the pain of suffocation pressing against my chest.  I try to cry out, but there’s no sound.  I turn around and try to run toward the exit, but I’m immobile and powerless as it fades from view until there’s nothing left.  No light.  No air.

Aether: The Writer is the creative property of Andrew T.S. Bedgood and is protected by US Copyright law.  Any use of this creative work without permission is prohibited.

Duskland Tales on Windows Phone 8

In preparation for the upcoming debut of Duskland: The Web Series, Mana Interactive has prepared a companion app for Duskland.  It will have a stream for all the episodes in the web series as they’re published, production photos, news, and links to Raw Footage Films’ and Unity Films’ Facebook and YouTube pages.  Additionally, the app will also contain .pdf download links for any written Duskland Tale that is and will be published.  All in all, it’s a great companion app and will only grow over time.  You can download the app on your Windows Phone 8 device here.

Unfortunately, the app is currently only running on Windows Phone 8 devices and there are currently plans to release a companion app on Windows 8 PCs, though no other details are currently available.

Duskland: The Web Series is poised to debut this year with the initial episode being Job: A Duskland Tale.  Stay tuned for more information regarding the web series and future publications in the written series.

Splash Screen

The Tale of Another Job (.pdf)

I recently had the pleasure of reading a selection of this short story as a part of a “celebration of the arts” at Bay College.  My Tale of Another Job: A Duskland Tale was included in a collection of visual and literary art that the school publishes annually.  I realize the formatting on this site for my stories isn’t exactly great, so I’m uploading The Tale of Another Job as a .pdf for your convenience.  Feel free to download and share the story, but I will remind you that The Tale of Another Job, Duskland, and all other related materials are my creative properties, so give credit where credit is due.

You can download the .pdf with this link:  The Tale of Another Job

The Tale of Another Job is a modern retelling of the biblical tale of Job with a drastically different outcome.  It’s also a very personal story.  When I wrote it, I paralleled a lot of events from my life with the life of my protagonist, Job–although I made the life of Job grander than my own.  The losses and struggles I’ve endured throughout the past couple years brought to mind the biblical tale of Job:  a man who lost everything and yet still kept his faith in God.  It’s a powerful tale and one that reminded me daily that, “Gee, I guess I don’t have it so bad.”

I began pondering how my story might have turned out if I didn’t have the tale of Job or my faith.  If I were a different man than I am and didn’t have the things I had to pull me up from where I had fallen.  This isn’t to say that I faced all of my struggles with an unwavering resolve and my faith was never shaken, but I like to think that I came out on top and was still, at least to some degree, responsible.

The thoughts about how my story might have turned out compared to how it did stayed on my mind and I eventually decided to write this Tale of Another Job when I had to author a short story for a writing class.  I’m very proud of the outcome.

It’s not an expansive or exciting tale in any way.  It’s plodding and subtle.  But it’s also an intricate tale filled with metaphors and meaning if you take the time to closely examine all the subtle details.  I encourage you to do just that.

After Freefall

Now that I’ve finished Freefall, it’s time to move on to new stories and projects.  I’m brainstorming new ideas for more Duskland Tales but I’m pretty busy, so it will probably be a while before you see anything from that.  I’ve got some older stories that I intend to modify for the sake of Duskland though they weren’t originally intended to be a part of this Twilight Zone-esque experiment.

I’m also working on revising Freefall and planning on posting the entire story as one piece as opposed to the 14 parts it is currently in.  I’m considering adding a brief prologue, I’ve already extended a few scenes to clarify some things, and I need to ensure that my timeline is consistent.  The prologue and extended scenes won’t detract from the ambiguity of the story as a whole, but will rather serve to better develop the character of Tom.  He’s an interesting character and I really enjoyed creating him and his little personality quirks, giving some additional background on the character might be a good thing.

Also, now that it’s done, I’m open for discussion of Freefall.  If there was something that you liked, didn’t like, are curious about, would like some more insight on, and so forth–ask away and I’d be more than happy to have a conversation about it.  I love hearing what readers take away from a piece of writing and Freefall is likely the most ambiguous story I’ve worked on so far; I’m really interested in discussing what your thoughts on the story are.  What do you think is real and imagined?  Is Tom dreaming at the end?  I’d really like to know what you think.

Freefall: Part 14 (The Final Part)

I stood outside her door for a few moments.  There was no answer.  I tried peering through the window on her door, but it was more for decoration than function.  All I could really tell was she had her living room and kitchen lights on.  I assumed she was busy in the kitchen, so I checked the knob—it was unlocked.  I opened the door and let myself in.

“Alice?  I hope you don’t mind I let myself in.”

I walked into the living room.  She was peering up at me as she lay comfortably on the couch with the television remote in her hand.  She sat up and patted the seat beside her.

“I kept it warm for you.”

I set down her plate on the coffee table in front of her.

“Wine?” I asked as I set my dinner in front of the seat she warmed for me.

“Yes, please.”

 

 

Night 4—Friday:

 

I had purchased a fresh bottle of merlot earlier that day and it was resting, unopened, on my counter.  I pulled my corkscrew from the silverware drawer and two glasses from the cupboard.  I opened the bottle and poured two generous glasses of the red.  I felt certain that the bottle would be gone by the end of the night and a taller glass meant more time before a refill trip.

I walked back to the living room; Alice was already working on her steak.  “It’s very good,” she said covering her mouth with her hand so I couldn’t see the small bite she had been chewing.  “Cooked just right.”

“Glad to hear it,” I said handing her the glass of wine.  “I hope you approve of the wine selection.”

“I’ll trust your judgment.”

She pointed to the seat beside her again.  “Make yourself comfortable.  I already put the movie in.”

I picked up the remote and pressed play.  The screen was filled with static for a moment before I could see the image of a woman looking back at me.  Her stare was intense, but comforting.  She reached out a hand to me—beyond the screen in which she stood, her hand came out to me as an offer to guide me.  I rose from my seat and took her hand.

 

 

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As I grabbed her hand, she pulled herself in close to me, placed her mouth next to my ear, and whispered to me, “You are dreaming.  You can fly.”

I believed her—everything she said.  I was in that place again.  In my dream.  Atop that damned building.  Tonight was the night I would fly.

I looked beyond the woman to the edge of the building—the platform of my triumphant flight.  She began to dissolve as I stared past her and I thought to myself, I am dreaming.  I can fly.  I stepped forward and, with each step, I kept repeating, “I am dreaming.  I can fly.”  I reached the end of the roof and stared forward—not down to the ground below, but forward to the open world that lay before me.  I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.  Stretching out my arms, I repeated to myself one last time, I am dreaming.  I can fly.

I opened my eyes and my alarm clock stared back at me.  The time on its face was 7:15am.  The sound emanating from it was louder than usual—it made my head pound.  I quickly turned it off and rolled to my other side.

 

 

Day 7—Monday:

 

My head ached, my mouth was dry, and my stomach was in knots.  There was no doubt in my mind that I had a hangover.  I concluded that I didn’t get much sleep, either, as I was incredibly tired.  I didn’t remember drinking, though—or anything about Sunday night.  I had a date with Alice, but I wouldn’t think we would get plowed.  Maybe a glass of wine with dinner and the movies, but I could taste the remnants of cheap brandy on my breath.

Maybe the date went poorly, I thought.  I didn’t want to think that I screwed it up, but I’ve never been above finding comfort in a bottle when the occasion called for it.  I considered calling her, but ultimately decided it would be best to talk to her in person.  I would see her at work and we’d sort things out there… hopefully.

I rose from my bed, took a muchneeded long, hot shower, scrubbed my teeth for a solid 5 minutes to get the stale taste of bottom shelf brandy out of my mouth, rinsed twice with Listerine, and dressed.  I still felt like hell, but at least I didn’t look like it—I thought, anyway, as I looked into the mirror.  The bags in my eyes were hanging pretty low, but my teeth were clean, my hair parted, and my body clothed.  Better than nothing.

I didn’t doubt that the day ahead would be nothing short of challenging, but I wasn’t bad off enough to call in sick.  I opened the door and stepped into the lobby.  I could see the concierge standing behind his desk looking over at me with a look that said, “How can I help you?” before he even had a chance to utter the same line.

 

 

Day ^:  7-41|day

 

“Sir, are you alright?” he asked me—a genuine concern in his voice.

I could feel my breathing labored and my eyes itched.  “Yes, I’m fine,” I said as I approached the desk.  Each step brought me closer to the man, and with each step I could see the expression on his face changing from that of concern to shock or empathy.  Maybe both.

“I saw you on the news last night.”

“Excuse me?”  I honestly had no idea what he was talking about.

“It was all over the news, what happened last night… I’m sorry, you probably don’t want to talk about this.”

“You’re right, I don’t.”  Mostly because I was entirely incapable of talking about it.  I was oblivious about what happened and had no way of continuing the conversation.

“I apologize.  Is there something I can do for you?”

“I’m not entirely sure.”

“Well, what did you come here for?”

“I—“ I stopped for a moment confused as to why I did go into the hotel.  It was a striking image—one I had seen dozens of times in my dreams.  I stood beneath the green awning of this building every night before I fell.  I was hoping to find answers inside, but I was only met with confusion.  “I’m not sure,” I said before turning around toward the exit.

“Well, thank you for stopping in, and have a pleasant day.”  I could hear in the tone of his voice he was thinking something along the lines of, “Strange fellow.”

I opened the door and stepped inside.  Alice was lying on the couch; her light brown eyes wide open and staring up at me.

 

 

Night 6:  Sunday

 

Unblinking, they stared up at me.  Pale, lifeless, and framed by dried blood and tears.  Her mouth was open and contorted—frozen with an expression crying out in pain.  I could hear her screams in the silence echoing against the walls.  Her clothes were cut and bloodied and the knife that opened the holes in her chest was still plunged deeply in a wound.  She was gone.

Everything I held in my arms fell to the floor as I collapsed in a heap of tears and agony.  “She’s gone!” I cried out with an unrestrained intensity.

Dr. Taggart sat across from me in silence.  I could feel my body quivering as I fought to control the emotion—I couldn’t.  I began to cry violently as I shouted, “She’s gone!  She’s gone!”

 

 

Night 7:  Monday

 

He just sat there with a blank expression on his face as I sobbed uncontrollably in my seat.  The eruption of emotions came from nowhere and he seemed to be as surprised by it as I was.

“It doesn’t make sense!” I cried out.

“What doesn’t make sense?”

“All of it!  Nothing makes sense anymore.  Everything is happening out of order—I’m trapped in this twisted bastardization of reality.”

“Tell me what you mean, Tom.”  His voice was steady and calm—the damned doctor just kept calm despite my intense emotional outburst and it was pissing me off.

“I mean, I don’t even know why I’m here—how I got here—I’m just here!  I find myself jumping around from locations and…” I paused.  Something clicked.  The strange happenings, everything out of order with no reason as to why, my being here in the doctor’s office.  I was dreaming.  It all made sense when I thought of it like that.  Dreams are rarely ever linear and full of nonsensical translations between places.  This was all a dream.

“I am dreaming,” I stated my conclusion aloud.

The doctor was taken aback for a moment at my revelation.  He was wordless.

“I am dreaming and none of this is actually happening—none of this has actually happened.  I just need to wake up.”

“Tom,” he said, his voice bored and monotonous, “I know you’ve been through a lot, but this kind of reaction isn’t going to help you.”

“What kind of reaction?  Claiming that I’m dreaming?  That’s the only logical explanation to all this nonsense.  The real world follows rules, logic, and a linear sequence of events—what I’ve experienced is anything but.  I am dreaming, I just need to wake up.”

“Tom, look at me!” he raised his voice.  I was surprised.  “You are awake—this is all real.”

“No!  No it’s not!  I’m trapped in this hellish nightmare.  I need to wake up!”

I stopped for a moment to think.  Think of a way to wake myself.  Then it came to me, I need to fly.

I stood from my chair and walked toward the door.  Dr. Taggart rose from his as I marched closer to the exit, “Where are you going, Tom?”

“To fly,” I stated as I whipped open the door.

The evening sun was bright as it peeked above the horizon—I could see it just beyond the end of the building.  The towering monument to all my restless nights.

 

 

Day ~:  D|79day

 

I stood still for a moment to pause and admire the view.  It was beautiful despite all the pain it had caused me.

I took a step forward—I told myself, This is it.  I took another step, This is the night I fly.  Another, If I do this, I can wake up.  With an unwavering determination, I pushed myself closer and closer to the edge; telling myself with each inch of ground that if I could take the leap and fly, I could have my life back.  I just wanted some normalcy to return to my chaotic joke of an existence—to escape from this wretched dream in which I found myself trapped.

I stood on the edge of the building and looked forward—forward to where I would fly.  Somewhere beyond this place—this vividly imagined hell.  I stretched out my arms and stated aloud, “I am dreaming.  I can fly.”

 

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Freefall: Part 12

Day 7—Monday:

Matt followed slowly behind me.  Terrance was standing at the coffee pot.  He could see me coming into the kitchen out of the corner of his eye and he froze.  He stopped pouring his coffee and set the pot down.  He turned toward me—his eyebrows raised and a concerned look was painted across his face.

I was confused.  Had something happened to me?  Was I bleeding?  I looked down at my outfit; it was slightly wrinkled and unimpressive, but there was no blood—no reason for concern.  I reached up and touched my face; I could feel some stubble on my cheeks and oils on my forehead.  But no blood.  No swelling.  No pain.  I was confused.

“Tom,” Matt said behind me.  I turned to face him.

“Tom,” Dr. Taggart began, “I’m glad to see you.”  He stood to shake my hand.  A gesture uncharacteristic of the doctor.  “I didn’t think you’d show up today.  Do you want to talk about what happened?”

Night 7—Monday:

I sat in the chair opposite the Dr.’s side of his desk.  I was at a loss.  I had no idea what he was talking about.  I made something up.  “I don’t really feel comfortable talking about it right now.”  I paused and looked to the floor to sell my distress.

There was a long moment of silence as I stared at the floor thinking of what I could say next.  Dr. Taggart interrupted my thoughts, “I understand.”

I looked back up at the doctor and nodded in acceptance of his understanding.  There was a long pause as he stared at me in silence.

“Is the CD still working for you?  Are you still sleeping well?”

“At least seven hours a night.”

“Good!  And the dream?”

“Still the same dream.”

“Have you tried to fly?”

“I haven’t been able to.  Last couple times I dreamed, I woke up before I could get to the top of the building.”

“Huh,” the doctor said as he scribbled something down before looking back up at me.  “That’s quite peculiar.  Have you figured out why you’re going to the top of the building yet?”

“Last time I dreamed, I was climbing to the top of the building so I could fly.  That was all I could think about.  Each step, I kept repeating to myself that I was going to do it—that I was going to fly.”

“But you didn’t make it to the top?”

“No.”

“Maybe it’s because you’re climbing the building for the wrong reasons,” he said almost questioning his own analysis.

“What about what you were talking about in our last session—how your thoughts are all jumbled.”

“What about it?”

“Are you still experiencing that?”

“A little in the morning when I wake up, but everything is pretty cleared up now,” I lied.

“I’m glad to hear that, Tom,” he said with a subtle insincerity—like he didn’t believe me.  He wrote something else down in his notepad and looked back up at me with a look that suggested he was waiting for me to say something.  I had nothing else to say.

I let out a deep sigh in that uncomfortable silence as I fidgeted in my seat.  He just kept staring at me.  That damned condescending stare.  I couldn’t take it anymore, his looking down at me.  I turned away from the doctor to get his face and that glare out of my mind.

“Are you sure you should be here today, Tom?” Matt asked.

I was confused.  I felt fine and yet everybody was treating me so strangely.  “I’m sure.  I’d much rather be here than sitting around at home all day,” I stated before turning back toward the coffee pot and pouring myself a cup.

Day 7—Monday:

I walked back to my desk with my coffee in hand.  I could feel the stares behind me.  Matt and Terrance stood in the kitchen entryway and just watched as I situated myself at my desk.  I tried my best to ignore them—keeping my head down and just going about my daily tasks.

I booted up my computer, logged in, and opened my prototype project that had recently been green-lit.  From over my monitor, I could see Alice approaching my desk.

“Hey, Tom,” she said.

“G’morning, Alice.”

“I got some more of that sound stuff you wanted done and sent it your way.  Don’t know how much time you’ll have to really get it working before the meeting, but just thought you’d like to know.”

“Great!” I said as I opened up my email to download the attachments she sent me.  I looked down at the clock in the corner of my screen; it was a little after nine and the meeting was set up for 10:30 that day.

To be continued…

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Freefall: Part 7

As I exited the office, I couldn’t shake the strange feeling that something wasn’t right—like I had missed something.  I walked to my car in a daze as Alice pulled into the office parking lot.  She had a smile stretched across her face.  I waved at her as she pulled up beside me and rolled down her window.

“Hey, Tom!  Didn’t get to catch you after work; I just wanted to let you know I had a good time at lunch yesterday.  Thank you.”

“Yeah, sorry,” I replied.  I was at a loss and she could clearly see the confusion on my face.

“Is something wrong, Tom?”

Stuttering, I tried to hide my confusion, “I think I forgot to send a file to Matt.”  I pulled out my phone and unlocked the screen.  The time was still 12:17, but the clock let me know that it was now Thursday.  I nearly dropped my phone.

Day 3—Thursday:

“Tom?  Tom?  Are you okay?”  I could hear the concern in her voice

Still stuttering, I responded with another lie, “Yeah, I’m fine.  Just got some strange news from back home, but everything’s okay.  How was lunch?”

“Good,” she said with another smile, but I could tell it was forced—something in her eyes told me she knew I was lying.  “Not as good as Chinese,” she snickered, “but good.”

“Yeah,” I paused as I looked into her brown eyes staring back at me with an unexpected concern.  It felt good.  “We should get together again sometime.  You, me, some dinner… maybe a movie.”

“I’d like that.  How about tonight?”

I paused to think.  This doesn’t feel right.  I’m missing a day—everything from lunch on… gone.  I need to figure this out—figure out what happened.  I paused to make an excuse.  “Well, I’ve got an appointment with my therapist tonight—I figure it would be good to check in with him now that I’ve gotten some sleep.  Tomorrow should be good for me, though, if you’re free, that is.”

“Yeah, tomorrow works.”

“Okay, cool.  I’m off to lunch right now, but I’ll catch you after work today so we can figure something out.”

She nodded as she rolled up her window and pulled into a parking spot.

Night 3—Thursday:

My appointment was scheduled for half-past six, and I was running late.  Again, I had lost myself in my work—if Alice hadn’t snapped me out of my trance to remind me of our date tomorrow, I may have worked through my appointment altogether.

I was six minutes late when I pulled into the parking lot and it took me another three minutes or so to work my way to Dr. Taggart’s office.  His secretary informed me that I was late, a fact I was well aware of, and that the good doctor doesn’t like tardy patients.  I made up some excuse about traffic and an important business call—it wasn’t really her business, so I didn’t feel obligated to tell her the truth.  I opened the door to find Dr. Taggart sitting at a desk shuffling through some papers and occasionally writing something down.  Apparently he hadn’t noticed I entered the room as he kept about his work until I seated myself across the desk from him and made myself known.  “Hey, Doc, sorry I’m late.  Been busy at work—I’ve got a prototype due tomorrow, so I’ve been really crunching to get it done.”

He looked up at me, holding a sheet of paper lifelessly in his left hand.  I could see smirk forming in the corner of his mouth.  “No bother, I had some stuff I needed to get done myself.  I’m glad you came, Tom.”

“Yeah, I figured I should after that CD you suggested.”

Lucidity?  How did it work?”

“Great!  First solid night’s rest I’ve had in ages.  It almost feels weird to get some sleep now, and I can hardly believe that all I needed was an easy listening CD,” I chuckled.

Dr. Taggart set down the paper he was holding and pulled out a notepad.  He flipped through a few pages and pulled the cap off of his pen.  “Tell me, Tom, when you slept, was it the same dream you’ve been having, or was it a new one?”

I remembered everything from my dream.  The way the world shifted around me: the beach transforming into a cityscape, the rain, and the woman—the woman who stepped from the television to tell me I could fly.  It was the same idea, the same city, the same building I found myself atop every night, but the way I got there, the weather… it was all different.

“It was raining in my dream.  I remember it vividly.  It never rained before.  But the way I got there, in the city, it was like the city came to me; it formed itself around me.  It was bizarre and I was totally aware that it was happening.”

“You were aware that you were dreaming?”

“I don’t know if I was thinking, ‘Hey, this must be a dream,’ because I didn’t really question the world changing around me.”

“Tell me about the rain.”

“I don’t know what really to tell about it.  Is the rain significant?”

“Well, you remember the rain; that must mean something.”

“Okay, well, when I first closed my eyes, I was standing on a beach… and then the city came and it started to rain.  I woke up when I heard a clap of thunder and Lucidity was still playing… and it was on a track that was storm sounds.  You know, rain and thunder.

“Well, after that, I went downstairs to watch a movie, but the static of the television was alluring and before I knew it, a woman was approaching me from within the television.  Then I was atop the same building I had been on every night before.  The woman whispered in my ear, ‘You are dreaming.  You can fly.’”

“And did you?” Dr. Taggart asked as he scribbled down notes on my story.

“No, I fought with myself to gain the courage to make it to the edge, and when I finally convinced myself to make the leap, my alarm went off.”

“Nevertheless, it sounds like you’re making some serious progress.”

“Do you think I should?”

“Should what?”

“Take the jump?  Fly?”

“Well, in past sessions, you’ve told me you don’t know how you end up on top of the building, and you’ve always said it ends the same way:  you fall.  I don’t know if the mystery of how you get on that building has been solved yet, but that fear of falling—being helpless of the outcome—I think that’s something you can take control of now.  When you get up there at the peak and you’re telling yourself that you can do it—that you can fly… when you take that leap, I think that’s when you might be able to move on from this nightmare.”

“If it doesn’t work?”

“Well, your problem might be rooted elsewhere, and we’ll cross that bridge when we get there.  Until then, become the master of your dream.  Don’t fall when you can fly.”

“I hope you’re right.”  I paused briefly as I thought about the time I had lost—the day that went missing.  Maybe it has to do with my condition—my lack of sleep.  Maybe I should mention it to the doc.  I mused about it briefly as he stared at me intently, examining the worried expression on my face.

“Is there something else that’s bothering you, Tom?”

“Yeah, something weird happened the other day,” I paused for a moment as my head began to pound.  I must have grimaced.

“Are you alright?”

“Yeah… just an unexpected headache.”  I closed my eyes and slowly massaged my head.  The pain was profound.  Tighter—tighter I closed my eyes hoping that the darkness would ease away the pounding.

I opened my eyes.  A crude collage of images filled the screen of my phone—leftover assets from Mudd-Runn I had repurposed for my prototype.  I stared blankly at the screen for several moments trying to figure out why my prototype was running.

“Did you get lost, Tom?” Alice asked.

I looked up… lost and confused.  This isn’t right, I thought.

Alice smiled at me before asking once more, “The time, Tom?”

I looked down at my phone and closed the prototype.  I was brought to the home screen.  The illuminated display informed me that it was nearly one in the afternoon.  On Wednesday.

 

To be continued…

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